أصدقك القول يا سيدي

[سيدة الحروف]

تسافر الأحلام إلى مقبرة قريبة من دفتري الوردي فلم تجد مكانا لها فقد أغلقت المقبرة أبوابها، و رفعت عن موتاها غطاء اليأس و ثارت عضامهم و أعلنت الثورة من جديد و البحث عن الأمل و عدم قطع اليأس فعادت الى أشلائي محطمة الفؤاد و باسمة الثغر، تقول لي يا سيدتي لقد طردني القبر و عافني الكفن و قالت لي التربة لن أقبل جسدا يائسا و حزينا من يأتيني يجب أن يكون سعيدا، فقلت لها يا حروفي التعيسة لقد صرت وحيدة من دونك أشكر هذه التربة على طردها لكي لأنني أحسست بالأمل يدب في عروقي و الحب الذي طردته لم يرضي الرحيل كذلك فماذا أفعل غير الإنتظار هناك تحت شجرة الصنوبر و أنتظر قبلة اللقاء و عيونا عسلية تأبى الرحيل حينما تراني بين مسامات الرمال الذهبية ممتطية الجمل و أجوب كأنني من ساكني الطاسيلي، أحببتك يا سيدي يجدها حينما يرفع ناظره إلى السماء و حينما يهم بشرب الماء يجده بين كفي الناعمتين و حينما تلاعب الرياح شعره الأملس يجد أناملي تحمي رموشه من الرمال، فهل أرحل بعدما وجدت نفسي معه في كل ثانية من حياته حتى حينما يتحدث مع أخرى أو يغازلها أجد نفسي أقتل في اليوم ألف مرة و لكنني راضية بما أسمع لأنني أحبه لدرجة أنني أصبح يومها صماء و عمياء، هل أرحل بعدما صارت حروفي تكتب له و حينما أنوى الرحيل تحزن و ترحل عنى و تأبى الرجوع إلا حينما أنوى الكتابة له، أعلم و أعرف شعور الوحدة و لعبة الأقدار و لكنني أأبى البقاء وحدي في غرفتي أنعزل عن الجميع و لا أريد و لا أرضى أن يكون غيرك من يتوسد وسادتي و ينتظر مني قصة كل ليلة عن الغول و الحسناء أو أنه ينتظر مني أن أكون الجارية التي تغسل أقدام سي السيد، لم أستطع أن أتقبل فكرة غيرك في غرفتي و بين أوراقي و بين صوري و يرى أحلى ثيابي و يسمع مني أجمل عباراتي و ينتظر من أن أحضنه بكل حب و أغسل له ثيابه بأناملي و أتفنن في نشرها، أو حتى أكون سيدة المطبخ و اطهو له أحلى الأكلات، و أتفنن في إعداد أشهى الأطباق، أنا إمرأة أحبت بصدق و وفاء كبيرين و لا ترضى الإنهزام للضعف و اليأس و لفكرة المهم الإرتباط، أبحث عن الحب و الحب و حضن الحبيب البعيد عن العين و لكنه ساكن بالقلب، أحبكة فلا تنتظر مني الرحيل يا سيدي زارني الموت مرات عديدة و أبى المولى رحيل لما؟ يا ترى لأنه وجدني متمسكة بحبيبي و بفكرة أن أعيش لأجله أن أعمل في دنيتي لأجله و لجنتي و جنته لربما أخطأت فأتركني أصحح أخطائي إتجاه نفسي و إتجاهك و إتجاه ربي و خالقي،آمنت بك و بصدقك و بطيبة قلبك فحارب لأجلي لأنني أقسم بالله العلي العظيم حاربت المرض و الموت لأجل أن أراك ثانية و أكون المرأة التي تحلم بها و التي تتمناها أن تكون سيدة تجمل إسمك، أحبك كثيرا أكثر من نفسي.

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أقُوم بالليّل و الأسّحار سَاجيةٌ
أدّعُو و هَمّسُ دعائي.. بالدموع نَدى
بنُور وجهك إني عائذ و جل..
ومن يعذ بك لَن يَشّقى إلى الأبد..
مَهما لقيت من الدُنيا و عَارضها..
فَأنّتَ لي شغل عمّا يَرى جَسدي..
تَحّلو مرارة عيش في رضاك..
و مَا أطيق سخطاَ على عيش من الرغد..
من لي سواك..؟ و من سواك يرى قلبي؟
و يسمَعُه كُل الخلائق ظل في يد الصَمد..
أدّعوك يَاربّ فأغّفر ذلّتي كَرماً..
و أجّعَل شفيع دعائي حُسن معُتَقدّي
و أنّظُر لحالي..في خَوّف و في طَمع..
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مَوّلاي إنّي ببابك قَد بَسطتُ يَدي..
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